Why?

aching,
deep in the pit of my stomach
not sharp
so dull, in fact
so faint, it would almost be imperceptable
if it weren’t accompanied by those memories
those thoughts of you

oh why? why do I continue to miss you every minute of every damn day
please, get out of my head
you’re like an infection
giving me fever,
pain in my chest,
banging in my brain
I need some relief

It’s been two weeks and I’m still not cured
this can’t just be a simple illness
this must be a curse
maybe it’s terminal
that’d be okay
at least there’d be relief
I need some relief

I wish you could heal me,
but you can’t
you’re too far gone
I wish you knew this pain,
but I don’t
I wouldn’t wish this on anyone
this could be hell