November 2011
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reality
forget reality reality is too ugly i prefer the dream this hideous delusion in which i’m surrounded my manufactured existence i get by, but only just and seldom thrive where is my dream around the corner maybe not i round the corner daily looking for it waiting for it it’s never there tired of looking tired of waiting can i make my own dream? i don’t know but i’ll try
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change
once I had a clue a direction a purpose that’s all gone now I’m just drifting blowing in the breeze nothing makes sense my existence is muttled one feeling to the next emotional rollercoaster a cliche, I know but completely valid no one is in the driver’s seat no autopilot no cruise control on this runaway train too serious can’t get a grip this reality is eating me from...
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illness
Why? aching, deep in the pit of my stomach not sharp so dull, in fact so faint, it would almost be imperceptable if it weren’t accompanied by those memories those thoughts of you oh why? why do I continue to miss you every minute of every damn day please, get out of my head you’re like an infection giving me fever, pain in my chest, banging in my brain I need some relief It’s...
nice guy
I opened the door for you Held the umbrella Waited while you tried on shoes I guess that wasn’t enough I didn’t yell Never cursed your name and remembered your birthday Do you remember that? I took you to places museums and restaraunts cafes and long walks I only wanted to please you I teased you sometimes pointed out your flaws and preyed on your naivety Always in jest You made me...
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pieces
there I go again lending it, sharing it, giving it away one piece at a time soon there will be nothing left a hollow shell emptiness, void wish it would come come back even just a little a tiny fragment maybe I could give it to myself a remnant of what I had a reminder of what I’ve lost
lol to Facebook pics
Well, I’m not entirely sure why (but I can definitely speculate)… she changed her Facebook profile image. It’s not that I care (too much), it’s more the fact that I had to keep seeing it, until I just removed her posts from my home page (I hadn’t realized that you could do that). I didn’t want to unfriend her… that just seemed a bit too harsh… well,...
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First post: "Lonely Winter"
I see you there, now, hiding around the corner I was too busy enjoying life while you crept up Here you come, with all of your holiday cheer and heart-warming sentiment I won’t be participating I’ll put on my fake plastic smile and I’ll share tidings I’ll weather your weather, like I always do and I’ll sit and I’ll wait for warmer days.
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so, now, here I am... (read this third)
So, now… I’m seriously kinda sitting on a huge pile of wtf.
I have little recourse…
we share most of the same friends. (I can’t talk about her on any other social media)
I wouldn’t blame any one of them for hooking up with her (but I’d definitely hate them for it).
For now, I’m just trying my best to get over her. I know that there’s nothing I...
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The story... continued (read this second)
Well, it took me the longest time to get over her, but eventually, it happened.
Time took care of it for me, I was just forced to move on with my life and eventually she became a distant memory.
This brings us up to the most recent subject of my obsession. I thought I was ready, I was sure I was ready. (I was certain I was ready). I got involved with this girl… the facts surrounding our...
October 2011
6 posts
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The story... so far (read this first)
I have to start from before the beginning… where all stories should begin.
I’ve had many girlfriends in the past and they’ve all played rather significant roles in the shaping of my life. Our lives are mostly the confluence of everything we’ve experienced in the past (or exactly that if you subscribe to existentialism).
Despite the multitude of my relationships,...
“Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you...”
– Unknown
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